Experientially

I’ve been watching some really badly scripted series. Partly due to a bad mood which a series cant cure. But mostly due to some lady whom i can relate to there. Everything seems to go wrong with her life. Everyone seems to fail her. Yet she rises. Someone believed in me today. Just when i

This is how you travel with sadness.

I would love to tell you about that pain. But I won’t. Because how do I describe pain that makes one feel like their whole being is in a torture chamber? But not exactly? Like the soul aches so much that one wishes that they would have a physical injury to reduce it. How do

Borrowed fuel.

Ever felt like you are running on borrowed fuel? Like just one more mishap and you are done. I’ve spent the last 30 minutes trying to figure out how I feel. And that first line up there is quite accurate. I’ve found myself avoiding instances that will make me tired, or will strain me or

Make sure we get there.

This is to the ones we meet huko in box when I post those posts of how badly i’m doing. Not the encouragements; those ones really help and some people even reach out to help( God bless your souls). No. This one is for those who relate. Those who have been beaten down by life

God of the hills and valleys

The last few months have been hard on me. Very hard. One of those moments when you go from bad and just when you think its getting better, it gets worse, then you think that surely,  can it get any worse than this? Then the worst happens. It was the longest I’ve ever stayed underwater.

Of tough times and healing..

Dear younger me, I write this letter to warn you of tough times ahead. Of things no one tells you at your age. Not to scare you but to prepare you. For I know how much you hate spontaneity(unless its an adventure; duh!) They tell you that being out of your parent’s care and support

One day I will write about this place..

One day I will write about this place.  I will try as much as possible to describe its indescribable nature.  The way it comforts one while beating them up. I heard rats do that. They bite you and then blow some air there so as to sooth you lest you feel pain and swat them

In the middle of a storm

I met some lady from church the day before yesterday who thought that I’ve not been writing much of late. And in truth I miss writing. Like writing what’s in my mind. But I rarely write when I’m in a bad phase. Because then, what’s in my mind? Do I tell you about the discouraging

I just want to sleep.

People struggle with many things.  Others encounter very difficult challenges on the way.  Like I attended a burial yesterday. And the loss was immense.  You could feel it.   But one thing I learnt never to ask,  is ‘why me? ‘. Because the question implies that you would have wanted someone else to carry that

Desert Diaries

When I started going through a hard time recently..i was confused. Every single day I kept on encountering a challenge after another. Minor ones, big ones, easy ones and difficult ones. Its not like my life has been a smooth ride all along, its just that I have never encountered difficulties in such close proximity