Lovely love story

I have just read the most lovely love story by someone whose mind I love. And as is usual, the most lovely of love stories usually end or start with a heart break. Does it only count if a heart was broken? Does the pain contrast so much with the bliss that was the relationship’s

And now that I’m here

For as long as I can remember, I have always wanted to live lightly. To be free. To always be on the run, walking towards somewhere, searching for something.  I wanted to be free of humans. To not have the burden of attachments. To not have to bid farewell to my love(s).  Because somewhere along

Eventually, it will sprout.

I wish I could capture this moment for you. For us. For the future. For the times when I’ve gone back to words I wrote when in the thick of things and how they’ve saved me. They have reminded me that i’ve been here before. And I made it out alive.  But I feel this

I want life. In all its possible ways.

When I was turning 25, things felt different. I couldn’t place it then, I couldn’t tell what was up, but I knew that life as I knew it, was done. It felt more scary than exciting. As if I was moving from one land to a totally different one that I didn’t know of. Change

Hope gives life.

I’ve just seen this vlog of this family that has moved from Nairobi. And my heart is so full. Like I can almost feel what they are feeling even though I’m not the one making such moves. For most of my life, my struggles were centered around being alive. Or trying to be truly alive.

May the Ocean Goddess have her way.

Today’s waves were quite strong. That people were chased out of the ocean by lifeguards at some point. Same with the waves in my heart. Anxiety bubbling up. The old is gone. But the new is yet to arrive. A friend commented about the gods I serve. How kind and gracious they are to me

Those shy mountains.

There are moments that are perfect. And this right here is one of them. And it’s so weird, to get this feeling inside there, that this moment, this feeling, this everything, is what heaven feels like for me. And so I look around and wonder what makes this a little more special than yesterday or

Make life feel alive.

“Over the years I’ve had the gigantic fear of death, but its morphed into something far worse, the fear of life itself..” And as David, a character in the series survivor, speaks, I’ve had to pause, rewind and listen to him say it again,because of how true those words are to me right now. There

Life is one big uncertainty.

Tonight has been such an emotional night. The kind that seem like a whole year yet its only been a few hours. Weirdly enough, each day like today, for the last 5 years, i’ve been here, on this blog, writing something, when I’m notified that today is our anniversary. There was a time I wanted

Essence

Some kids are singing on top of their voices in some school nearby. They sang yesterday at a time like this. And the day before today. But listening to them right now, you wouldn’t tell that all they do is sing at a time like now. Because of how energetic they go at it. Young.